2005-10-23 - 10:29 a.m.
diet coke taste good in the morning, no ; it really does.
I honesty don't understand why things are so hard for me to digest.
I mean shit ; like I have it all that bad?
why the fuck am I a whiner?
is my hardship so damn different from everyones elses?
no, not really .......holy God I hope not .
you know in the bible it says to always capitalize Gods name ......when I dont ,I feel bad.
hell, I'm familiar to feeling bad ,I almost crave it cause then im not suprised but anything. well i am but thats my wall , my glutton , my way of my truth ..........which sucks but its too scary to try anything else. I blame it all on my parents , they're my scapegoat, my right of passage moment . oh well .......you understand don't you ?
I always think if I was skinny or pretty or had just enough cash to make it i'd be so so, much happier...............that damn static t.v. makes me believe silly things. as people would say ........damn the man. I have to laugh because I think I'm there but I aint even got my socks on yet. shit , the mirror telling off on me today .....i'm not digging it in the least. I could go on for ever because i think i'm insightful , witty even as that pink cat would say . Ive only been up for 10 mins , i've got to pee.
I cant bring myself to say anything good...........suprise, suprise.
